ahem...thank you all so much for the insightful comments. i had written a much longer post acknowledging you all for them, but someone used my computer and closed the window before i could publish it. thank you, bruce, for the recipe. i'll try it some time. thank you, linny, for balancing out my tomato idea. you're right, not everything is worth trying. some things are obviously disgusting, harmful, and idiotic. so the "try everything at least once" lifestyle just gets stupid after a while. hehe.

i think one thing that helped me decide to start this blog thing was the fact that i'd tried journal-writing before and actually succeeded, at least for a few months. i succesfully chronicled my activities for one entire semester in college, 3rd Year-2nd Sem. That would be November to March of school year 2002-2003. I updated my journal every Tuesday and Thursday, beginning at 1:30 pm until 3. I would always go back and cover the period of time in between every date.

The reason for the strictness in the schedule for journalling is this was the time of one of my most boring classes. I had tried all kinds of boredom-busters already (hmm...maybe i should make a post about that), but they were all temporary. I needed one that fixed me up for the whole sem. And this one did. It was actually very handy, and provided me with a lot of insights as to how i was spending my time. one of the things i remember from it is being shocked at the number of activities i'd have in a week, from youth on fire, to cell, to prayer meetings, to dinners, no wonder i couldnt find time to study. hehehe.

but wait a minute, joe..."was handy?" "provided?" why the past-tense?

well, my journal is lost. it's been missing for months now. and it kinda gets me down to think that all of those memories are gone...well, they're still in my head, but i cant access them as efficiently. there was so much in that thing! argh! 5 months of my life! some of the best moments of the year! Bonifacio Day! (hehe) the entire Christmas season! my mom's birthday! joshua's birthday! MY BIRTHDAY! the end of the school year! i had so much in there...an analysis of all my classes...a two page description of my classroom and my seatmates, notes to one of my best preachings, fractals, my name written over and over again covering an entire page (i like my name, so sue me)...if i remember correctly, i had trips, cotillion practices, and all kinds of other stuff. but why am i not sure? coz i lost my journal!!!! aaaaarrrrrggghhh!!!!

im hoping it'll turn up somewhere. i have the strangest feeling that ive lent it to someone, but i dont know who. so ive asked different people if they have it, and it just makes me look silly. it gets me so down sometimes when i think about all the lost thoughts. ("think about the lost thoughts?" is that possible? if they're lost, how can you think about them? -- shut up, now's not the time for stupid philospophizing) obviously, i dont show this when im with other people. it's business as usual as always.

this leads me to my main point, this can only be done through the magic of compartmentalization. see, compartmentalization...oh, it's lunch time na pala. later