ok...i must've shot my mouth off too quickly. i thought my posts were gone, but it turns out that's a regular occurence and now they're back. hehe. oh well...i'll keep them there as a memorial to my rashness in speaking out too quickly, and as a reminder not to over-react to situations.

anyway...a word struck me today...i used it while chatting with tanya. the word is "grotesque." i've used the word several times before, of course. with brothers like mine, there is never a lack for a situation requiring it. but this time was different because i "saw" the word. try it, look at the word.

"GROTESQUE"

dont even think of the meaning yet. just look at it, particularly at the "esque" ending. i dont know if it's the same with you, but it looks and sounds maarte to me. because you could easily use a "k" or "ck" for the hard "kuh" sound, but instead you have to compicate matters (and increase the length of the word by 50%) by using the "que" instead. i mean, you don't say, "im at my desque" do you?

so when i looked at the word, i perceived (or conceived) a sense of kaartehan about it. however, that is so far from the actual meaning of the word. so i was getting mixed signals in my brain. my eyes were giving me a notion of "kaartehan." while my brain was processing it and saying, "misshappen, malformed, ugly." it was a weird mix of thoughts, having to reconcile the fact that a fancy looking word was being used to convey such a different meaning...

ok, maybe that didnt make sense. i guess it was one of those "had to be there" kind of things. you would have had to be...in my head, i guess...at the moment it happened. hehe. labo